anxiety is terrible, you could be having an attack and no one would even know because it’s an inward thing. it feels like you’re malfunctioning and you can’t process your own thoughts. you get a knot in your stomach and you can’t take a full breath but outwardly you can literally just sit there and look completely normal as long as no one tries to speak to you.
im always suspicious of anyone that finds me attractive
I’m never the one who gets called first.
I’m never the best friend.
I’m never the one someone falls in love with.
I’m never the best at school.
I’m never the funniest person.
I’m never the most entertaining person at parties.
I’m never the one someone tells a story first.
I just exist. And I’m sick of it.
trusting and opening to people is becoming hard. keeping my grades up is becoming hard. feeling pretty and confident is becoming hard. thinking joyful thoughts are becoming hard. doing work is becoming hard. maintaining a friendship is becoming hard. doing everything is becoming hard and i don’t like it.
Trusting people is becoming hard
Keeping my grades up is becoming hard
Feeling pretty is becoming hard
Thinking happy thoughts is becoming hard
Doing work is becoming hard
Maintaining a friendship is becoming hard
Doing everything is becoming hard and I don’t like it
i literally dont talk to anyone unless they talk to me first
r u ever scared to walk past a group of teenagers even though you are also a teenager
Idk why I keep getting sad over people that don’t give a shit about me.
depression is when you don’t really care about anything
anxiety is when you care too much about everything
and having both is just like whatHaving both is staying in bed because you don’t want to go to school and then panicking because you don’t want to fail. Having both is wanting to go see your friends so you don’t lose them all, then staying home in bed because you don’t want to make the effort. Having both is insanely hard and sucks to deal with.
I can’t sleep